Friday, February 15, 2013

James "Rhio" O'Connor Memorial Scholarship Essay Contest

Kimberly Federoff


Faith and Fight


Cancer is a disease that affects many families all across the world. When given a diagnosis of cancer many people associate that with the end of life. There are many effective ways to treat various types of cancer however, mesothelioma is one of those types of cancer that when diagnosed almost always means a swift end to a cherished life. Mesothelioma is a rare type of cancer that forms over the protective lining of vital internal organs, namely the heart, lungs, and abdomen. Like many people that have suffered from mesothelioma, James Rhio O’Connor developed the disease after being exposed to asbestos when he was young. This brave man was given a year to live, but he defied all odds and surpassed his “expiration date” by over seven years. He combined modern medicine with other treatments such as a positive “mind over body” outlook on life, a change of diet, and also focusing on having fun and enjoying life knowing that there was something bigger than himself to focus on. All of these treatments lead to his prolonged life, and greatly enhanced his quality of life. Rhio’s story not only lends inspiration to those diagnosed with mesothelioma, but those diagnosed with any sort of terminal cancer. With a positive attitude and persistence anything is possible.


If I were in the same situation as Rhio, I would like to think that I would be just as brave as he. My love of life and my passions would keep me going. I have a passion for performing, especially singing. There have been many trials in my life, and singing has gotten me through all those hard times. My grandmother, whom I was particularly close with, fought through cancer. It started as lung cancer then spread to her brain. By the time the doctors found the cancer, they gave her two weeks to live; she pushed through and lived an additional 9 months. She decided that she would not only partake of what modern medicine had to offer, but she would fight it herself. With laughter, the love of our family, and fighting to see one of my performances that she was very excited about she, like Rhio, surpassed all odds and lived a considerable amount longer than the doctors thought was possible.


I am a strong believer in “mind over matter” or “mind over body”, as some say. If I ever got a prognosis of cancer, I would focus most of my energy on fighting. I would not completely rely on modern medicine, although I am thankful for all the men and women that devote their time and energy and knowledge on finding treatments for cancer. I have faith that there is something greater out there that can help me fight disease, and if I put my trust in that, and focus on the positive aspects of life I can fight through anything. Singing has always been there for me to clear my mind, and it helps me stay positive. I really think that alternative treatments, such as singing, in my case, could help me if I ever was diagnosed with cancer. Positivity is very important, and focusing on the future. Many people halt any future plans, because they are afraid of a lack of future. I think that having something in the future to look forward to would help me, I know it helped my grandma. As long as you keep fighting, never get tired, and never give up, the human body, and brain in particular, can achieve miracles.


I think that there is a time and place for modern medicine. Radiation, Chemotherapy, and surgery have helped and saved many people’s lives throughout the world. So I would definitely utilize what the brilliant oncologists throughout the world have discovered in regards to cancer treatments. However, through pondering and personal experience, with my grandmother, I have come to realize that other treatments are important. Rhio did not just expand his life because of modern medicine; he took his diagnosis into his own hands and said “I will not give up”. That fighting attitude is very important and if I ever was in the same situation as him, I would take-upon that same attitude. Rhio is such an inspiration. He, along with my grandma, really helps me to understand that life should not be taken for granted. And doing something you love will make you enjoy life more, and in turn give you more strength to fight in a battle against a terrible disease.


Thursday, May 31, 2012

Now its time to go...

Oh dear me. Its been freaking forever since I've posted on this thing. If y'all wanna know why its because my life went from boring to terrible teen drama to complete shit in the matter of minutes. 

But enough of my complaining, no one really comes on blogs to read. Pictures are what its all about, and I got plenty of those for ya. 

The night before last was the 23rd? annual Siggy Awards at MHS (my old high school). 

Now every time I go back to high school, I get super bitter, so I like to avoid it like the plague. But this was not only the 23rd? annual Siggy Awards, it was the last one. Because dear old Mr. S (the drama teacher) is retiring, or getting fired, no one really knows which one.. (just kidding, I think he is just quitting due to a holier then thou super superintendent.) 

I went to the Siggy Awards, was a part of a terribly awkward alumni performance, watch people get their awards, watched some interested musical numbers and then went to Applebee's for a night cap. 

All in all it was a decent night... I mean I got to wear a pretty dress for pete's sake, how could it not be fun! 

Well here's what you have all been waiting for... 

Left: Me and the Beautiful Christine.
Right: Austin the handsome musician and I. 

I didn't take too many pictures of the night, because I forgot my camera. But yay for having a friend (Christine) and a mom with iphones! 

Nachos. Oh god. They made me want to die. 

Little Bro, Steven being all Shnazzy. 

Will (Kim's boyfriend) and mi madre. 

Left: Sammy and Kim (my older, little sis) 
Right: Stephanie (my older, big sis) and Cray Will. 

Me and the infamous Alex Mendoza, looking handsome as always. 

Dress- Thrifted/Prom Shoes - Kohl's/Jewelry-Various

Song of Silence

Monday, February 6, 2012

I Work Out!

So for real guys I just started p90x and it is kicking my ass. 

I always watched the informercials for it and was like really shut up there is no way they got that body doing that work out what a scheme just like every other work out thing on the market. 

But OH. MY. GAH.

It works. 

Day 1 left me so sore I didn't even know what to do with myself!

I don't know if I really recommend it or anything yet, because I obviously haven't gotten any results yet, however I'll keep y'all updated and shit. Maybe even take some before and after and progress pictures. 

I don't know. Lemme know what you guys wanna see! 

Pretty soon bitches will be sayin "Girl look at that body!" 

And I'll say "I'm sexy and I know it"

ha. oh god. I'm lame. It's too late for this.  BYEEEEE.

Wednesday, February 1, 2012

Don't Know Why I Didn't Come... my senses earlier!!!

There are 3 things that I am kinda unhealthily obsessed with right now! 

I'm seriously banging my head against the wall on why I did not discover the first two things earlier! The third thing is kinda a past love but I am glad it is back in my life. 

Now I definitely sound like I am talking about a relationship with these things... call me crazy. 

Don't make fun of me... I know I am a little late on these things but here they are. 

1. Yes It is the Hunger Games!!!! I finally read the first book and oh my god. I die. I was totally going to take some cute picture of me holding the book expressing my love for it, however this morning I sent it, along with a lovely Valentine's Day care package to my man. :) I just want him to read it already, so I can start talking to him about it. . Right now I'm pretty sure he thinks I'm mental. 


I don't have the other 2 yet, but they are in the mail!! Just ordered them online today (Along with the whole Girl with the Dragon Tattoo Trilogy... pretty sure once I am done obsessing about The Hunger Games those will be my new obsession.) 

2. Eos-Lip-Balm-Egg-Things. No Idea what they are supposed to be called all I know is I LOVE BALLS. That sounds dirty.. tehe.. but for real, I love the shape of them and they feel so nice on my lips. I'm not going to say they are the BEST at moisturizing my lips, but they do alright. And what they lack in moisturizing ability they sure as hell make up for in smell (and taste)!!! Seriously obsessed. 

I have the summer fruit one, but I can't wait to pick up a couple others! Smiles.

3. Spartacus Vengeance. Love. Love. Love. Now warning it is SUPER graphic but um in over 18... so its all good. I loved the first two seasons of Spartacus. And this season is not disappointing me. Anyway Spartacus Vengeance. Watch. It. 

Alright those are my 3 obsessions right now! Hope you guys enjoyed. And seriously check out the things above. You will not be disappointed. (Disclaimer: Only watch Spartacus if you are of age!!! I don't wanna get in trouble with anyone for suggesting an 'inappropriate' show) 

Bye for now. Smiles. 

Thursday, January 26, 2012

What's Been Up.

I'm in Colorado yo! 

Dude. It is BE. AU. TIFUL. here. Smiles. 

So many trees. Nice weather. And no BYU. I am content. 

All I really need now is to find a freaking job. This is a smallish town though.. so there aren't many places to work at. AND it is winter. And in Cali winter means nothing. But in Colorado, winter means businesses are slower... meaning they don't hire new people during this time. 

If I got a million dollars for ever time I heard "You can come back in the spring, we'll be glad to hire you then" I would never have to work again. [I hate that saying "if I had a nickle for every time I heard..." because honestly if you are only getting a nickle every time you hear it.. even if you hear it 1000 times... you don't have THAT much money... just saying... that is a stupid saying.]

Enough of this talk. 

Basically my to do list is:

1. Make money.
2. Move back to Cali.
3. See my friends that I miss so much! <3

Stuff if good right now. Smiles. 

Song of the Moment: Pure Silence.

Tuesday, January 3, 2012

The Good, The Bad, And The Ugly...

So yesterday and today have brought about a ton of changes in my life.

The Good:

1. The 2nd was my lovely bester's 20th birthday! (Only 1 more year till the fun begins)

Happy Birthday Vic! I wish I could have spent the day with you. (And she looks Amaze)

However before I left we had a little party for her (I will post pictures later) 

2. Another amazing thing, is that TODAY is my man's 19th birthday!!! I wish I could be there with him but I am just glad he is having a good birthday! 

I love you honey! Happy Birthday!!! <3

The Bad:

I recently decided to take a break off from school. I am really just not happy where I am, and I also am not really sure what I want to do in life. I know that by doing this people will probably look down on me, but to be honest I don't care. I really just feel that I need to take this time to find myself. I think that I have been so focused on grades and school for the past 12 years that I kind of lost who I was and became a person that I really don't like. I think that this break from school will be a good thing. So actually this is not a "bad" its a "good". I am really scared right now... but I think in the end it will all work out for the best and everything I want in life (once I figure out what I want) will happen for me. But for now I need to work on myself.

The Ugly:

Since I am leaving school, I need a new place to stay. ha. So instead of going back to Cali, I am going to live in Colorado with my dad for awhile. Its going to be weird, cold, and cramped, but I think it will be good for me. And hopefully I will be able to get on my feet and move to Cali really really really soon!

That is all for now guys.

Thanks for listening. 


Tuesday, December 6, 2011

Never Felt Better...

Today I presented my Women in Art final project. And having already taken the final exam, I am now officially done with that class. I have never felt better in my life.

Alright that last part was a lie. But I am really excited to be done with it. Smiles.

I cannot wait for break. Only 3 finals and 2 essays to go. Fun.

I'm going to make this post really short, just wanted to celebrate my doneness with you all. <3

As promised, here are a few things from my Christmas List, nothing too outrageous.. Enjoy.

1.       Sterling Silver Taylor Momsen Engraved Cross Necklace 
I love this necklace. It is really simple, but I think it can go with everything, and I think it is really nice. 
2. Diamond Candles - Sweety Pea
I have been dying to get one of these candles. Hopefully I finally get one. It comes with a candle and a ring! And I love rings, and I love candles. 2 in one presents are the best. Smile. 
3. Suede Oxford Ankle Boots - Brown - Size 9 
These boots are so cute. I have been wanting a pair of casual oxfordy boots for a couple years now, actually since I bought my bester a pair of ankle boots a couple years ago for Christmas. <3 These are super affordable which is always a plus too!
4. Fluffy Slippers - Any color - Size 9 or L 
My fluffy slippers are old, but I love them. I need a replacement, and I will literally take any fluffy slippers. I don't care about brands or whatever. Smiles. 

Well these are a few of my wishes, very simple and easy... hopefully! <3
Song of the Moment: Winter Song - Sara Bareilles & Ingrid Michaelson